Kate's Journal

and a happy new year, to the 0 people who read this.

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide.

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.


i love those lyrics.

First week of school is now over and out.
Better than i expected, i feel more academic this year knowing i achieved an A in English. I still can't wait to move on from Windsor though it isn't much fun (But what school isn't)
I am currently sticking to a 'get off the computer earlier' ritual which is going along quite badly, tonight i will actually be off before half 9 otherwise i will be very angry with myself. I've been lying in bed late at night with my ipod on just listening to lyrics of songs lately, and noticing how much some mean to me. At the moment i am really digging 'Everything's Magic' by Angels & Airwaves. The lyrics are just amazing and i can't stop listening to it. Tom Delonge has always been an idol of mine since 1999, from listening to 'Enema Of The State' in my dad's car full blast. Even if now he's in AVA he is a bit of a vain guy, he's made up for that with the music, they will never beat Blink though seriously i miss them so much, i cried so much when they split, and i still get moments where it's like 'why did you have to split.' I know they have explained sort of why, but nobody's perfect and could they not of just forgot their differences and whatnot and got on with what many fans love(d).
On from that.... this week i think i have really started to appreciate things a lot more. Usually i don't know what I i have until it's gone, but now i am starting to think a little bit more and not take everything for granted, it feels a lot better. Also i have started to just completely ignore people who think they are funny and try and show off my acting cool and swearing, i have my reasons for doing this as they only go and stab you in the back when you become friends with them again, i am no fool; i used to be put I'm over that now.
On a lighter note today I think i had the best cake i have ever tasted in all my life, a nice butterfly cake seriously Megan if you ever read this become a chef of at least a cake expert. Now my drama coursework is over i feel the world is my oyster, i could not go anywhere without thinking about me, it was like a presence... lovely.
That's all from me.

Okay, so i feel livejournal is pretty darn amazing.
Coz not many people know i have this, so i can write what i want without having to be shouted at. I love just writing on for hours about things which will only either make sense to one person, or myself; Inside jokes- how i love them.
2nd of September already! This year has flew past me quicker than a speeding car. Sometimes i wish i could re-live those few days from this year which are very special to me for various reasons. For example seeing bands i have wanted to see for years, and finally seeing them in the flesh (It's hard to explain how close i get to a band without them even knowing about my existance.) Alas, i have been lucky this year for those few odd seconds were you get to say 'hi' to your idols. I am quite surprised at just how down to earth the icons of mine have been when i have met them. (Jwalk and Spencer in particular)
Also spending time with my friends has made this year that extra bit more bearable. Especially Catherine. Without her i would be left in on my own staring blankly at a computer screen for most of the days of the 6 weeks holiday. She makes me laugh so much and we have so much fun together. She is my best friend seriously. Other friends have come and go being classed as best friends too, but they turned out to be swines but Catherine is more honest and listens to me unlike others. Our friendship is unique with greetins on MSN such as
' CATHERINE lolzers says:
koijuytred

- kaaateSLEDGEHAMMER says:
efiodhr'
much more different than your average hello. She has also helped me with a 'crisis' if you could call it that. My mom's new 'friend' Alan. Sorry to be mean to him he's nice and all, but i just don't connect with him; he's boring and drab and a conversation with him gets as far as 'how's that pop band you like, Kate?'. Oh please. So she makes jokes about him and the cakes he always seems to bring around to the house. I think because we go to different schools and only see each other on a weekend it makes it more fun to be around her instead of having her in my face 24/7 at school like my other friends (who i can loose my nerve with). One famous quote to Catherine still
'I hope we stay friends till we are 30' x

So basically what i'm getting at is it's Catherine and Panic! At The Disco who have got me through this holiday, really. 6 weeks is a long time to have nothing to look forward to so Decaydance was the perfect solution for that. I had being looking forward to it since June the day the tickets came out and it's always nice to have something to look forward to.. but it is always over way to quick for my liking, and having Catherine to talk to (in person or via computer) has made a lot of my boring days happier.
So all i have to say is good riddance 6 weeks holiday.

zomgz lyk i t00tally 4got i had this thanggg.

Ah shut up.
So a lot has happened in the past 6 months.
I've been to plenty of concerts.
FINALLY saw Panic! my life source. Ohmygod they were amazing, Met Jon and Spencer and met Zarah again.
Day of my life to be fair in good old London town, went there in april too was pretty good to see MCR- won tickets on radio1.
Its like 5 past 12 and i'm just not tired.
I don't know what's happened lately.. i just don't want to sleep at all and I've been getting up at mid-day. I have huge bags under my eyes. It's crazy.
I don't want to go back to school whatsoever. I do in the way that it is one day closer everyday to leaving the crap hole. I want to move onto college now it seems so much more laid back. Well i know it isn't work wise, but i'd like to make a new set of friends there. You know fresh start etc. etc.
I think i'm gonna get into writing these more often. I like it. I need to finish my drama coursework to feel like myself again, it is as if i have a huge 47458kg weight on my back with it lurking behind me, and i only have till the week after next to get it done, it is driving me mad.
I was having so much fun talking to a Ryro fake until they bailed out and decided they were a 13 year old girl. I love testing the poor souls and winding them up.

Anywayyyyyyyyyy.
adios for now.

Well, It's 6:51 PM.
I am tired and home alone. I want something exciting to happen, i am bored of the usually 'Sunday' routine. Why can't sunday's be interesting? Instead of a day of nothing.
I'm kind of looking forward to tomorrow though, back to school for another week. Better than being sat at home doing nothing with the day. Jess is gonna give me the Panic! clippings from Kerrang! And NME she promised me, and i'll give her the Fall Out Boy ones which i sat and cut out for an hour or two earlier. Double Chemistry first lesson, fingers crossed Mrs. Patel won't turn up (as she's been off for 2 weeks 'ill'). Haven't learnt one thing with her at the moment so what are the odd's on me failing the Chemistry module all together?
It's the 14th of January today, that means one month exactly till Valentine's day, Oh the joy! And about 2 months till My Chemical Romance on the 22nd of march i can't wait it's going to be amazing.
Sarah and I will be kicking 'smalley' people in the mosh pit.
The on April the 3rd It's Fall Out Boy.
That should be good fun as i heard some of the album 'Infinity On High' Today.
It would be great if Ryan Ross just appeared and did the solo that is to appear on the album. That would make my year complete.
I didn't reaslise how hard it is to think of something to say on here, i guess it will get easier and starting it on a sunday there is never anything extraordinary to put.
Zarah made my day today sending me a few texts. We do have a laugh.
Shame she has to live so far up north!!
Perhaps one day i'll walk to see her, but then again April 3rd I will see her.
Anyway my Brendon Poster has just fell off the wall, what a highlight.
God I love those guys. Panic! At The Disco put such a smile on my face. I love them. I like the t-shirt i got yesterday from fueledbyramen surprise surprise its a Panic! one.
Any how im bored now
Maybe some other time.